♥hArD fEeLiNgs♥

Have you ever wished to become someone else? Someone who could do whatever he wants? Have you ever felt being a prisoner of yourself? Of your family? How about, feeling so alone, so hatred, so much depressed, and it seems it is already the end of the world?

Feeling such things would make me go crazy!!! If I would want something for myself, definitely my mother won’t like it for me. We’re always having arguments regarding that misunderstanding. Not just with that, sometimes, we were having fight because of my friends, my very close friends and our trips. For me, she’s kind of KJ…

Ever since I have these hard feelings for her. Even to my father. I just don’t understand why are they very strict to me? Do they know that I’m hurt whenever they disagree with me??? I feel that I don't have their support.

I hope they will understand my feelings.

♥MisSiNg LinK♥

As I see a 2^nd year student passing by, I can’t stop myself reminiscing the times that I was on their stage. I miss the whole II-Oxygen. I miss how we make noise, how we laugh, how we play, how we quarrel, how we cry, how we fail and pass the tests and, how to enjoy being a student. Sometimes, I wonder if they are feeling the same way too.

I really miss them all! Christian, Edmark, Zyrex, Joy, Cyrille, Zhaila, Cez, Nadine, Claire, Jovy, Michelle, Cyrile, Felariz, Jerika, Ivy were all in other section, while Martin, Kodie, Glen, Ronhel, Harry, Dianne, Mafi and me were still in Oxygen. How about the others? Well, they have to leave for such a reason. I miss them more.

Nat-Nat was one of my funniest classmates. We constantly fight. One Friday afternoon, we were cleaning the room. I got angry because the boys were not doing their tasks properly, so I shouted at them. Nat taught that I was only referring to him. He got angry and threw the chair and the broom he was using. I got frighten. Some of my classmates took me outside the room so that Nat2 would not hurt me. Since then, I got afraid of him whenever his angry. How do we reconcile? Uhmm… We just let days passed by and then suddenly, were already ok!

Another classmate who always makes me smile was Mayreen. We call each other as “furtner”. Hahaha… Yes, Furtner. It was because; she’s always my partner in some activities. Sometimes, when we were bored, we will look in one corner of the room or even in the picture of Madam President while we were talking. Hahaha! Nice trip ah?

Since 1^st year, me and Ej were close friends. During weekends or vacations, we were always talking on the phone. Others taught of something between the two of us because of our closeness (but really, we have nothing at all). Honestly, we were always talking about Ej’s love life. He was always calling me to ask for advice.

Shaun, was the weirdest of all! Most of the times you will see him doing some hand gestures which are not normal. You would also hear him sing very loudly. He’ is such a funny guy! One time, he has these ¼ sheets of paper with his weird drawings. With that, he would foretell something about us. He also worship some other Gods which he said living in woods. Hahaha! I miss him so much!

Ilog!!! Hahaha! II – Oxygen’s president, Myrene was with Shaun now. I believe they are now classmates in ADSAI. She is the best president for me. She’s not that very strict but not also very kind. Since Preparatory were already classmates. She knows a lot about me.

I’m looking forward to have one day with them. Even just for a few hours. I really want to be with them again and have the laugher we have.

"Di ko maintindihan
Ang nilalaman ng puso
Tuwing magkahawak ang ating kamay
Pinapanalangin lagi tayong magkasama
Hinihiling bawat oras kapiling ka

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta
Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na

Ayoko ng maulit pa
Ang nakaraang ayokong maalala
Bawat oras na wala ka
Parang mabigat na parusa

Huwag mong kakalimutan na kahit nag-iba
Hindi ako tumigil magmahal sayo sinta

Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa
Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko sinta

Sana’y di na tayo magkahiwalay
Kahit kailan pa man

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam
Makapiling ka habang buhay
Ikaw lamang sinta
Wala na kong hihingin pa
Wala na"

I MISS YOU II-OXYGEN(o7-08)!!!

♥aN "aTe" beHinD -taJe-♥

whatever life may brings, we must go with it. Learn to move on and accept facts. We need to be strong and determined.

This Monday, (June 16) was the 1^st day of my brother in his new school. At first he was very excited to attend his classes in that school. I was disappointed when I got home and saw him crying in his bed. I talked to my mother regarding that. She said that Ian don’t like his new school at all. She said that I should talk to Ian and help him. Hence, after I had my shower, I talked to him. He said that he was uncomfortable in that school. He definitely misses the way in Maddalena Starace School, where we had our elementary days and his former school (He studied there for 6 years).

For three consecutive days, every time that I would arrive home, I always see him crying and complaining that he really hates the school. I became sad whenever I saw him that way. I miss my “lil Ian” who was very funny and talkative. Since last Monday, I helped him first in doing his home works before I do mine.

I felt pity on him. He was never used of having a different school aside from MSS. I too felt sad in my first weeks in CNSHS, but I had learned to adjust. I explained to my brother that the decision of my mom and dad for us to have a different school is also for us.

A Start of Something New

This is it!!! I’m now a third year high school student from Cavite National Science High School. I know that this would be another start of something really new. Since I was a first year student, some of my schoolmates who were on the higher years were always saying that the 3rd year level is the most difficult year aside form being a freshman.

The moment I woke up, I was already on hurry. I quickly ate my breakfast, took a bath and fix everything for the first day of school. I was accompanied by my mother because my service arrived already but I am still taking a bath. When I looked at the clock it was already 6:30 and I was thinking that maybe I’m already late and the flag ceremony was already starting. When I arrived at the school, all the students were already on the court and about to start the flag ceremony. I ran to our platoon before it starts. My first day in school was fun. Unluckily, it was very hot in our room. That night, I got head ache and stayed in my Grandma’s house for dinner. The next two days, we had our diagnostic test and the election of class officers,where I was elected as one of the board members,and club organizations. I joined YEC and Kabayani Club where I was elected as the muse for year level. This Thursday morning, my father left for wok in Europe. I was not able to come with them to the airport because of school. I cried the whole night and morning because of that. I really wanted to come with them to see my father before he left the country. And that afternoon, I don’t know what really happened the very moment I suddenly fell down the stairs about 3 steps. I was very lucky because Lorena was there in front of me. If she was not there, I maybe have broken my arm, or even worst than that.

It’s a freaky week for me! Meeting those new teachers and having a different batch of classmates was very exciting. Whenever we would use the comfort room we need to go down and go to the Chemistry lab which is very hard for us. I’m expecting for a lot more new things that I would be experiencing within this year. More difficult things and challenges to face and

no more laziness! For this year, I should aim high!!