♥On My Own♥

"I'm leaving you, I'm not sure if I that's what should I do. It hurts so bad. I'm wanting you but I can't go back. "

I'm trying to find something...
Something....

"It's so hard to say, but I've gotta do what's best for me. You'll be ok. I've got to move on and be who I am. I just don't belong here, I hope you understand. We might find our place in this world someday, but at least for now, I gotta go my own way"

I don't know why, but I felt very bad this week. I was not able to stay clam in each moment. Every now and then, there would be a fight. Haiz! It was very hard for me to stay in that kind of situation. I loose my patience easily. It was almost a month, I kept thinking to go on my own way. I want to be free from jealousy, too much protection and those fights that I can no longer resist. I kept on crying every night. One day, when I woke up, I asked myself. "Why are you crying for this things? It is not yet over. You can still do something to save your relationship with him." I taught I was right. But that day also, I lost my patience and suddenly, I decided to give him up. I'm so idiot for doing that. Giving up the man in your heart is not easy.